Christmas is coming soon, which means my family is going to be reunited. While I'm glad I still have a family and have nothing to complain about, I hate the way they treat each other. It starts within my family. My mom is sick and tired as fuck when she comes home every night and she cooks dinner for all of us. Instead of being happy she made the effort to feed us, my dad often complains about the food. It just bums me out so much that someone trying to be nice gets so much hate. Same for my grandma: she was recently diagnosed with Parkinson's along with her diabetes. She spends her life complaining about the pain and is convinced that no one can suffer as much as she does. It's unbearable once you hear it for 30 minutes twice a day, sure. But she's 78 and lost her husband five years ago and her son died when he was 20. She's a lonely woman and if complaining is what makes her 'happy', then let her do it. On a larger scale, the members of my family can't stand each other and they spend their time criticizing each other and once they see each other, they're like best buds.

What bothers me here is people stopping other people from being happy only because what makes others happy doesn't make themselves happy. Life is full of compromises. Sure, you gotta be selfish, but it doesn't have to mean that you're gonna spit on other people's happiness. I know I tend to be too nice but that's only because I see how gleeful it makes other people. I've always tried to make my parents proud, not because "I'm the perfect child" but because they deserve to see that they've done a good job. I've always gotten excellent grades and worked twice harder when my grades weren't that high. I was unhappy for a long time, I had no friends as I was 'the nerd' but I hid that from them. Having an unhappy child is something I'd wish to nobody. I'd rather spend my life trying to make everyone feel better than be happy on my own. It doesn't mean I won't enjoy things that only matter to me. I just know how frustrating it is to be nice and get nothing in return. I don't wish that on anybody. Life is short and in a blink of an eye, the loved ones are gone. I'm not saying you have to tell them you love them because it's something I'm incapable of doing. I'm just saying that people should really, really enjoy the time spent with the people they care about before it's too late. Be happy but take some time to make others happy as well. Your caring about people will help more than you will ever know.