I've never been that proud to be a French frog.

(hi, I am a real tourist in this picture)

So worried about what's next you lost today

We all think that our darkest times shouldn't even exist. Why? Well, it's easy to understand. The pain is so big that we just want to die. It hurts so much, it'd be easier to be happy.
But what if those dark times didn't exist? How would we feel? We would wake up every day and go to work, live our life and then go to bed. Is that a life? It sure seems appealing at the beginning. But do you really see yourself waking up every morning and not feeling anything all day? It would quickly become boring. And what about those moments when you'll really feel something and be happy. Well, will you feel the difference? Would you really know when you're happy if you don't even know what sadness is? Just think about it. Would you give up all those happy moments not to feel sad ever again? I doubt so... Would you listen to your favourite song the same way if you had never been through a heartache? Would music mean that much to you if you weren't hurt? Would that sad song make any sense if you've never known what it is like to have your heart broken?
Those sad moments teach us more than the happy ones do. We need to feel lost, insecure and vulnerable to go on. Our life can't be perfect, it will never be. But we have to fall before we get back on our own two feet. Those sad moments, once they're gone, are the best experience you could ever make.

You only hear the music when your heart begins to break.

"I couldn't tell you why she felt that way, she felt it every day. And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again. What's wrong, what's wrong now? Too many, too many problems. Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home but nobody's home. It's where she lies, broken inside with no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes, broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why you've been rejected. And now you can't find what you've left behind. Be strong, be strong now. Too many, too many problems. Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find, she's losing her mind, she's falling behind. She can't find her place, she's losing her faith, she's fallen from grace, she's all over the place."

- Avril Lavigne

Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?

I can't spend a day without wishing that a car will knock me dead while I cross the street. I have felt this way for more than two years now. It is sad that people come to that kind of thoughts on a daily basis. But a lot of us do. You don't even know it. Nothing is more misleading than a smile, no 'I'm fine' is said truthfully. You don't even know that your behaviour, the things you say could hurt someone and lead them to hurt themselves. You have no idea what those strong persons have the ability to hide from the others. It's so easy to criticize somebody. It's so easy to hide behind a screen. It is so, SO easy to be mean when you're surrounded by other people. You know what isn't? Thinking about taking your own life, every single day. Thinking about how you could ever do that without failing. Crying yourself to sleep every night because you know that you are not good enough. Being alone and needing a hug, and not a 2-second hug, a real one. Wondering if somebody misses you at that exact moment and not thinking about someone who could, not even one single person. You know what keeps those persons alive? Fear, lack of courage but certainly not the world they're surrounded with.
I always think about the last song I want to listen to before I die. That choice is so hard because I have an undying love for music. Also, I absolutely love being able to think and have some smart thoughts, it would be a shame to give them up. Without music and the world I've been building in my head, I'd already be gone.