But I'm still here.

To all these lives that need to be saved.

To all these sick people who need to be reassured.

To all these souls that didn't ask for it.

To all these families who have been through the pain.

To all these people who have to fight without complaining.

To all these lives that have already been taken.

"T'as une serviette ?" - "Non, généralement je prends ma douche chez moi"

A few days ago, I read something I had written when I was younger. While reading those words, I thought 'Oh man, I had completely forgotten about that!' What a shame! That's when I decided that I need to write about every little emotion, every memory that is worth being remembered.

During the whole year, there is one day I didn't want to miss and it happened today. In 100 days exactly, we will take our final exams and then we'll leave high school forever. So, as the tradition has it, we had to get well-dressed, which is something I love even though I can't leave my Green Day shirts and my skinny jeans. I had to shave my eyebrows and my legs but it was all worth it! Today for the first time, I've been told that I am beautiful. That's something amazing. You don't even know how to answer this. I have also told every guy I met how gorgeous he looks in his clothes. So, today was a very productive day - we didn't do anything, pretty much.

The two girls you see next to me up there are the only two friends I had when I arrived at this school. They've always been there through the happiest and hardest times and I know that I have never thanked them enough for that. I know that the first year here has been a struggle, a real one. The second year was better and it changed my pessimistic self into a better person. This third year has been alright. I truly feel loved here. And yeah, I'm gonna miss this place. It's something I've only been realising this year and it bums me out that it took so much time. I'm still the same person I used to be when I arrived here. I still love and hate the same things and I have not turned into a bitch but I've learnt how to appreciate the little things and how to smile.

Random thoughts

I really need to stop being lazy and write new stuff in here because I really have a lot to say. So I decided I'll just post some random thoughts, nothing really important though.

• I'm looking forward to Tuesday because we'll all be well-dressed at school and it will be fun!
• I'm happy with the persons I surround myself with. I don't say it enough but I have some wonderful people in my life.
• It breaks my heart when someone gives a gift to somebody else and that person doesn't like it.
• I need to spend more time on Photoshop.
• People really need to stop complaining all the time. They do.
• I want to dye my hair.
• I wouldn't mind dating a girl.
• Who's throwing a Halloween party this year? Count me in!
• Every time I feel hurt, I'm thinking "Hey, it can only be a good thing. Someday you'll stop feeling like this and you'll remember what you've been through and you'll know that the pain was worth it. You have to learn from the past."
• I want a Chandler Bing in my life.
• I don't even know why I've written this post.